Calum Scott

Ronnie | Anaheim, CA

This is going to be a long and very personal one.

I’ve always “contemplated” throughout my life because of my sexuality… Growing up with a far right family, toxic friendships I had to keep, being told what’s wrong and what’s right, manifesting to popular songs talking about girls… All because I wanted to be “normal”… Not only that, but being part of the LGBTQ+ community has its toxic side as well. Unfortunately, I’ve only seen the bad spectrum and it has only made me hide even more. It’s hard being at the end of a double-edged sword. I’m the type of person to isolate and contain all these thoughts and emotions… It’s a lot to carry in silence…

For the past 5 months, I’ve been struggling more than ever. Ending a secret, first relationship with another man of 3 years, dealing with imposter syndrome, cutting off friends, self sabotage… The list of demons feels like it goes on forever. It’s been a brutal war with myself - still is. But I’m here.

My way of coping with all my feelings is listening to music. And after the Bridges album came out, I’m proud to say that Calum Scott is the one real song artist I can finally relate to. Each and every song in this album has described all the emotions I’ve been going through all my life. It may seem bad to remind myself those things I’ve been through, but something about this album has made me reflect and grow as a person in general. It made me understand my emotions more than ever.

I’m still in the healing process and it is getting easier. I knew at some point I would feel a lot more hopeless than what I’m used. I’ve always believed that it could never possibly get any easier nor better when I get there. But it does get better. And listening to this album on repeat has helped me out a lot. I’m really looking forward to seeing Calum soon at The Observatory in Santa Ana. I hope one day I could thank Calum in-person for making this album and saving my life.

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